Covert operation

I am working on a covert operation. I have been sneaking around. I don't like it, but it is exciting.

I was thinking about relationships as I've been sneaking around. Some people find this to be the fun part. It is more fun if someone doesn't know what your doing

This is how some adultery starts. It is the thrill of the newness and the trill of getting caught and the thrill of a secret ... It's the rush.

I like a good rush now and then, but that is rush I avoid.

Now this particular covert operation will be finished shortly, and it wont harm anyone, but still, I don't like telling half truths (see previous posts!)

As I think about this, I cant help think about my kids. I really believe with all three of them, the trill of not being open, the secret thing, is a real gas, and a real issue.

Let's look at some case studies..

Daughter-- Now that she is in thee Jr. High, I don't see her as much. I use to be really involved at her other school, but the school doesn't seem to need me here. She enjoys the fact that I don't know who she eats with anymore. She likes her independence. All good until the math paper comes home as an F because she cant share.

Son 1 -- He is an open book. He tells me most anything, except when it comes to school work. The personal stuff is personal but he is willing share it. The school work stuff he likes to brush over in conversations. It's not that he is a bad student, but he know my expectations are higher than he would like. He can get an A with about half the work I want him to put in. This could prove a problem for scholarships.

Son 2 -- So far I think we are okay with this, except for the like like thing (as he puts it) I know there is at least 1 person he like likes but it seems more exciting if it is kept under wraps. I don't know if this will change with more time-- I guess we'll find out.

On another note-- have I mentioned I hate having nothing to do?
Saturday, and I have no responsibilities, nothing I have to do.
I hate this
I like to be busy
I feel these down times are a waste of time
I'm getting up
I've got to do something

see ya