So I woke up this morning without the alarm.
I read through my blog roll.
I updated my myspace page.
I've got laundry going.
It seems the day to day has taken over again. A life more ordinary.
I'm arranging hair cuts an eye exams.
We'll go school shopping .
I may actually get the stuff on E-bay like I have been planning.
I want to do these thing quickly, and get them out of the way.
This past year, if I can take anything with me, it is that life is short, time is fleeting and the tomorrows become yesterdays too fast.
Yes, I know, you don't have to tell me to take pleasure in these little things. I will. Right now my biggest little thing is noticing how much my two children have grown. We have a wedding in September and my son needs a new suit and my daughter doesn't have a pair of dress shoes to fit her.
And yet, with all that, my gut and my heart tell me there is something on the way. Just like I felt something 3 months before the Swiss kid arrived. I never "blogged" about it, but I did put it in my journal. The feeling of floating, the gut feeling knowing something was going to take place and change me--- I'm getting that feeling again.
The usual thing is I don't feel the creativity that seemed to come last time. My dreams aren't making any sense. And yet there is all this energy-- and nothing really going on.
I wish I could put my finger on it, but i can't.
All I can do is focus on what I know for sure. My life is never dull for too long. Things happen to me that only happen in the movies--- or at least they make movies about the kind of stuff that happens to me.
There is an adventure on the way. And God and the universe are giving me time to catch up on thing--- so that I can be prepared when it comes.
My application for a group leader to England is in. I will get my passport this week just in case they accept me.
I have a exchange student liaison training today.
I want all my work done early, so when the next big thing happens, I have time to enjoy it.
7 comments:
Mouse, I find myself in a similar situation. Looking forward to see what opens up for you!
Well, I can't wait to hear what the next big thing is. I wish things happened to me that they made movies about. My life is rather boring and ordinary most of the time. Yawn!
And now Lorraine is in the same situation. Sheesh! You guys make me feel so pathetic sometimes. ;) I still love you both, though.
Hmmm. I hope it's something good.
There was a rhythm and flow and tone to this post... it kind of reminded me of Dolly's "Hard Candy Christmas," about life going on just because it does. But don't listen to that song unless you want to cry some more.
Oh, and in response to your sex post, no. It isn't always good.
It's important to know the feelings that exist before anything happens, fore warned etc. You'll be able to deal with it whatever you are strong and stronger now because of what you've been through.
Don't wait on the next big thing - go out and get it.
Good luck! A Trans-at bloogy friend meeting springs to mind!
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