RED

Today, I put on a suit and went to an interview.

Today, I remembered who I am.

You see, for the past few months, with business being so slow, I started second guessing myself. I started to wonder about my value to the world as a whole. It's hard to write this 'cause I don't like to admit it. We all get down, I know, but I'm a fake it 'till you make it kind of person. Unfortunately, I wasn't fakin' it very good.

Leadership McHenry County www.leadershipgmc.org does a comprehensive team building and leadership course for our area. I applied for the course. I had to ask for a scholarship 'cause I don't have the cash right now. ($2000) I went on the interview today.

As I dressed this morning I laid-out several suits I thought would be appropriate for the occasion. I choose a red skirt. Red, my color. Red=Power Red=Control Red=Blood Red=Heat Red is a good color. I paired it up with a black shell and a white jacket with black piping.

Then I went to the computer to retype my resume. I actually have two. The one is for work, the other is for my volunteer activities. As I typed these documents, I found it hard to believe I had over two pages of volunteer activities and I couldn't even begin to list all the things I really do for my job. Wow-- do I do all that? Yes, I do. And I also have a family and a semi-clean home-- well at least we have clean dishes.

The interview went very well. I answered their questions and even asked a few of my own.

As I left, I realized that maybe, just maybe, I should be instructing the course, not taking it. No, I don't have a master's like the lady interviewing me (She had to bring that into the conversation) But I do know a bit about leading the community.

I walked out with a smile and a sense of self worth and confidence that I haven't had in a while.

When I came home and the kids had done the dishes and the kitchen is clean.

Wow.

Great day.