Monday, March 19, 2007

arrgggg

There are several things I want to let you guys know about. I have so much I want to get off my chest and on to paper (or hard drive) but I just am so busy and so angry and so confused and so excited and so insecure all the the same time I don't know where to start. So I guess I'll start with the good and work my way down.

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I told the hubby about England. He said he would miss me, but he wouldn't stop me from going. I found a power point presentation on line about the trip. I think that helped him understand what I would be doing. Next is the application. I have about 3 committees I need to get through before I am accepted. I will start tomorrow by filling out my application and presenting it to my local group for approval. My husband was totally non emotional about the the whole thing, probably because there is no way of knowing if I will get accepted for the program. We'll see how this goes.

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The Swiss son is giving me problems. He is in this mood and he doesn't want to talk with me or write to me. I think it has to do with him going home. He is starting to disobey, not in big ways, but enough that I am beginning to wonder if I can trust him. I know it's teen age stuff-- not telling me about homework, not following up on plans, waiting 'til the last minute to tell me things, being selfish. I told him the other day I feel like all I am is a bank account and a taxi. But I guess that is what it is like to have a teenager. I stayed up till 3 AM talking with him, but feel like he didn't really talk about what he is feeling. I guess I can't expect him to act like an adult. I just would like to see a little more effort on his part. I would like to get him to open up and talk to me about how he feels and what he is thinking about. I asked my husband to talk with him. That didn't happen. I hope Jim finds a way to open up to our kids before they hit 17. He wrote it is hard to sleep with tears in your eyes and your roof caving in. I know how he feels.

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My husband an I attended the annual murder mystery dinner. It sucked. The school kids host it and usually do a good job, but this year they didn't interact with the tables like the usually do. On top of that, I wore this really great dress and no one took a picture of me. I hate when that happens. Oh, and the vodka was cheep so i had a headache the next day. Icky.Oh, then we get home and my husband "orders" us to bed at midnight, so we argued in bed. Oh, and then we had lunch with my sister for her birthday-- painless until her husband got bitchy cause Annette put something on his plate that he didn't want--- gees get it yourself then.

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My big leadership presentation is this Thursday. I think I am ready. I still have to gather some last minute info. It's all good.

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My kids went to a wedding with their dad this weekend. They came home smelling like smoke. I hate that about my outlaws-- but there is nothing I can do about it except laundry.

9 comments:

Steven said...

The wife and I went to a murder mystery dinner thing one night on vacation...

We regretted it ten seconds after sitting down. ;)

Steve~

Anonymous said...

Another example of our opposite personalities: I HATE it when I go to shows and they interact with the audience/tables. I always try to sit in the back.

I need to work on that.

Spoke said...

I'm no counciler, but Swiss boy seems normal enough. However, he needs to realize that he can't get bank withdrawals without previous deposits! If he isn't working in a "payed job", then he should "earn his keep" however you see fit.
Ditto for your hubby. If he wants "the good" from your account, he needs to build up that account first. While you're at it, build up HIS account too.

Lorraine said...

Good on you for talking about England! I'm so glad it went well. Fingers crossed that the application process is a breeze and you are accepted.

As for the Swiss son, even if he acts like a turd, I know he is registering your care and concern. You have been a real gift to that kid.

~d said...

WOW!
This is like a brain purge!
I love it.
I am jealous!
I want to brain purge, too!

tkkerouac said...

You are so lucky to be going to England as a single woman, yee haww
I don't miss the teenage years one bit, its like they go through a period from 16 to 21 called "mental illness"

What do you think of rude anon commenters?

Sling said...

I had a dream that you went to England!...well,..not really..But I'm pretty sure your application will be accepted.

Anonymous said...

It will happen babe. Now we'll see how the rest of the family gets it together.

Judy said...

Well, so far so good on England!

It must be hard to be a foreign exchange student AND a teenager all at the same time. On the one hand he probably feels like hot shit because he actually came over here without his parents, and on the other, he probably misses home somewhat. Add to that mix the teenage hormones and insecurities... And how could he not be a little spoiled by the attention such a kid would get? You're a saint for taking him on!! (And I hope he decides to open up a bit about his feelings. Tough to do if he feels men don't talk about what's bugging them.)

Love your comment about nobody taking your picture. It reminds me (in a funny sort of way) of a greeting card I have. On the front is a photo of a bunch of sheep, and one of them is wearing a funny red and white bow-tie. Above them is the caption, "Adding to my misery, nobody here thinks I'm funny." And inside it continues, "What is WRONG with these people?!?"

Good luck with the presentation tomorrow!