Shhhhhh

Should I even be writing this? Probably not.. But I am now convinced this is the most anonymous place I have in the world. No one reads this fucking thing, well except my mom and as a daughter that doesn't count (if it was someone else's mom it would, but according to my own pre-teen children it doesn't). I have a great life, a great husband, great kids, with their challenges, wonderful church, wonderful friends who would lay down their lives for me, and still I haven't fully found what I am looking for. Why? What do I want you ask? I want my husband to walk with me in the moonlight and to skip work to spend a night at a concert with me. I want my kids to actually listen with out being told 10 times. I want my friends to say...Hey... Let's go out for a few and if tonight doesn't work let's plan another.

I have what everyone else in the world want and sometimes it just doesn't seem to be enough.

Forgive my selfishness.