Honesty

I do the church thing. Funny 'cause I didn't do the church thing in the city, but out in the country I do church.

I like church.

I like teaching Sunday school and I enjoy the conversion we have about faith, God, prayer and sin.

I think it's cool.

The the thing that is strange is how I feel and think about God since being in a small town. It's such a microscope here. Everyone knows, everyone sees. Does that make God closer? Well I know it makes me less confident.

I use to be okay with talking about God, the Bible, sin, and even the whole homosexual / abortion / non Christian stuff. But now,


I think therefore I hesitate.

I want to make sure what I say has some value. That I have a reason behind my madness.

The kids we teach are sometimes shocked by what I am willing to share. They lead such normal sheltered lives! Geees it's wonderful! Brady Bunch stuff. Even the big deals -- if I were to compare them to my big deals are really so rational and normal. Here kids get help for problems, in the city kids get kicked out for problems.

Here kids pray. Where I grew up there wasn't a prayer.

Is my honesty okay? The more I am honest with myself, the more I question, hesitate and pray. And what about the others, do they really want the truth? Can they handle the truth? Can I quote any other movies?