something silly

Today I did something silly.

I have a bit depressed lately. I cant put my finger on why. Well actually I can. I just don't want to go into it know because it is too complicated. Well it's actually not complicated at all. It's more like no big deal so I should feel this way but I do so I have been trying to distract myself until it passes.

My therapy? Spending time reading blogs and looking at people on myspace and wishing i was someone else or somewhere else or had different experiences or quality or more motivation ... whatever.... just not wanted to me! I know it wont work. I know i have to just get things done and that action is the best cure for lack of motivation... but hey, I don't indulge myself very often.

Anyway, while I was doing this.. i had a bit of an epiphany. You see, the only thing that keeps me sane when I feel this way is to know that there are people in the world who care about one another. I know that no matter how shitty I feel about myself or my situation, I can write about it and you'll read it. That is enough--- it is enough that you took the time to read it.

One of the greatest things I ever heard was Earl Nightengale speak about time as a bank account.

"If you had a bank account that was credited each morning with $86,000, that carried over no balance from day to day, and in which you were allowed to keep no cash and every evening canceled whatever part of the amount you failed to use during the day, what would you do? Draw out every cent, of course! Well, you do have such an account, its name is "time." Every morning it credits you with 86,000 seconds. Every night it rules off as lost whatever of this you have failed to invest to good purposes. It carries over no balance. It allows no overdrafts. Each day your account is new. If you fail to use the day's deposit, the loss is yours. There is no going back. There is no drawing against tomorrow. You must live in the present on today's deposit."

So, here is the silly thing I did. I made a post on myspace. That is something that goes out to everyone on your friend list. Everyone can see it--- the old lady moms and the high school kids and the friends from when I was 10... they all could read my post at once. It is silly to do such a thing, but I had to. And because you have spent some of your hard earned 86,000 seconds on me, I will post it here too.

Sorry for being so sappy guys. Thanks for the time you give me.

Give it up for friends...

Today is the start of Lent for the Christians of the world.
A time to give up, to think, reflect and repent.

I was sitting here looking at myspace and realized something…

If you are on my friend list, you were willing to give a little time for me.

If you are on my friend list, you were willing to give me a little attention.

Maybe you made a comment
Maybe you looked at a pic I posted
Maybe you sent an email
Maybe you read my blog
Maybe you thought about me for just a brief moment

And in doing so, you gave up a little bit of your time… and time is a lot to give.
You can’t make more time; you only have so much of it, and some of it you’ve spent on me. That truly brings me joy

So today, I give it up for my friends. Those here, those far away, and those gone.

And for the next 40 days, I'll try and give up a little more of my time to those who are important to me. Maybe, if I am able, I’ll even give some time to those people who just need to feel a little more important. Only ‘cause they don’t see how wonderful they are.
They would know if they looked through my eyes.

You can repost this if you want,
Or you can send off an email to a friend you haven’t talk to or you can just send out a good thought… but let’s “give it up” for our friends.

Peace © ampm